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Sorry everyone for the delay in this post, but it's been REAL busy round here lately. It's funny because I've actually attempted to write 2 blogs already and never finished them. There was no 'flow' to my writing. If you know what I mean.

It's like I would get halfway through and then 'Oh no, I've got to go do the dishes'! Or 'Oh no, I've got to go set the table'. So that blog goes out the window.

Life has not been at it's best for me lately, I'll give you an idea of what's going on. So my mum is in Hong Kong, 'supporting my sister'. Which is totally understandable considering the circumstances.

It's me and my dad at home, alone. That's fine for the first week, but by now it's already the end of the second week, I'm pulling my hair out! It is just SO frustrating not having the other half of your dad/mum around which is technically mum/dad.

I've changed classes, new teachers, new routine, new people etc. I'll sum it up with 'new'. I'm no longer with my best friend, fighting with the girls in my classes, and feeling not at all like a good friend to my BEST friend.

I'm constantly 'going to bed late' (eg. 9;30 pm) frustrated with dad, feeling totally out of sync, and then to top it all off while washing the dishes this evening, trying to listen to the conversation my dad is having with my mum, a glass slips out of my slippery hands, crashes into the sink, handle breaks; blood flow begins.

I'm bandaid-ed up, my eyes filling up with tears WISHING that life would hurry up and get better. I can't WAIT for my mum to get home.

It's not my dad, it's not really me (I hope) it's the fact that a vital member of my family if no longer here and we are expected to work as per normal. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!

It's as if someone has chopped off your arm and then life is supposed to flow just like it always has done. A family is a body, it is impossible (not entirely) to live without someone. In my circumstance it is my mum.

My heart crys out for the broken family's, if you're considering this (Breaking up your family that is = Divorce) give it one last shot. Do it for yourselves, and for your children.

Sorry if this have been a bit downcast...well, actually, ALOT downcast. Think of it as a blessing, life could be worse, I'm doing pretty good. I'm alive, I'm breathing. I still do have both of my parents.

I go to a good school, and although life may be hard right now, at this very minute. There is a light at the end of this tunnel, Jesus, he can fix the broken hearted, give peace to the troubled, love to the wounded and a promise to us all.

One day we (I hope anyway) will rise to the clouds to meet our glorious saviour where he will take us home, the dead will rise and all who have suffered will be restored.

And for you, my niece, Maddy, I love you, and no matter how life turns out for you, may your life song sing. You are going to be a blessing to so many people. And when I see you on that glorious day, there will be no more pain and no more tears. All will be well. I love you baby girl! Keep on fighting!